It’s been a week since we’ve stopped communicating.
I just want you to know that I’m not mad, I’m just hurting.
I saw you yesterday.
But I chose to look away.
It’s so hard to pretend that everything’s okay.
When all I wanted to say is “please stay.”
You let me go just like that.
Maybe I wasn’t important to you and it made me sad.
We used to talk everyday.
And you made me so happy in your simplest ways.
You’re not hard to love.
I just got tired of loving you.
Hindi ka naman mahirap mahalin.
Nakakapagod ka lang mahalin.
I won’t count everything that I’ve given.
I won’t get mad just because I can.
I just wish you’ve told me earlier.
That you have no plans of staying for good.
Or.. Is it just me expecting too much from you?
I don’t want to hear all those reasons.
Because if I really mattered, you could’ve fought for me. for us.
There was never an “us” to begin with.
Then what were we?
Are you just nice to me as you were to everyone else?
Nothing was ever clear my dear.
And that’s what I would always fear.
To be an “almost.”
To be “temporary”.
To be a “for now”.
You have no idea how much you’ve hurt me.
I cried myself to sleep that night.
Though I told you, Yes I will be alright.
Well, now you know. I lied.
I’ll never forget you because of the pain you’ve caused.
These scars will remain.
But i’m sure I’ll learn to live with the pain.
To the guy who left me hanging..