Falling · Hanging · Ikaw · Leaving · love · Magmahal · Masaktan · open letter · Pag-ibig · Self worth

To the guy who left me hanging.

It’s been a week since we’ve stopped communicating.

I just want you to know that I’m not mad, I’m just hurting.

I saw you yesterday.

But I chose to look away.

It’s so hard to pretend that everything’s okay.

When all I wanted to say is “please stay.”

You let me go just like that.

Maybe I wasn’t important to you and it made me sad.

We used to talk everyday.

And you made me so happy in your simplest ways.

You’re not hard to love.

I just got tired of loving you.

Hindi ka naman mahirap mahalin.

Nakakapagod ka lang mahalin.

I won’t count everything that I’ve given.

I won’t get mad just because I can.

I just wish you’ve told me earlier.

That you have no plans of staying for good.

Or.. Is it just me expecting too much from you?

I don’t want to hear all those reasons.

Because if I really mattered, you could’ve fought for me. for us. 

There was never an “us” to begin with.

Then what were we?

Nothing? Something?

Are you just nice to me as you were to everyone else? 

Nothing was ever clear my dear.

And that’s what I would always fear.

To be an “almost.”

To be “temporary”.

To be a “for now”.

You have no idea how much you’ve hurt me.

I cried myself to sleep that night.

Though I told you, Yes I will be alright.

Well, now you know. I lied.
I’ll never forget you because of the pain you’ve caused.

These scars will remain.

But i’m sure I’ll learn to live with the pain.

….

To the guy who left me hanging..

Goodbye and I hope you’re happier without me. 

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Blessing · God is good · Leaving · Life · love · Love advice · Pag-ibig · Pray · Rain · Right time · Self worth · Someday

Thoughts on a rainy night.

And so I thought this rain,

Will bring me chills instead of pain.

I know these tears won’t ever fall.

For the person who doesn’t deserve these at all.

Oh dear self, you know how fragile you always get.

Don’t ever do something you might regret.

Keep those worth keeping.

Leave those worth leaving.

To those people who don’t seem to appreciate you,

Let them go if they want to.

Once they’ve realized your value, 

They’ll do everything just to have you.

But then, you’ll be the best thing they’ll never have.

Forgive even if you’re hurt.

Smile even if it’s hard.

Dear, you deserve so much more

and that’s for sure.

Allow the rain to wash your pain.

Let your tears take away those fears.

You’ll be okay in time.

Just when the sun shines.

You’ll be more than fine.

God has better plans.

He’ll make you happy in the best way that He can.

Trust His perfect timing.

Because He never wants to see you hurting.

Stay happy, stay bubbly.

For tomorrow should never make you worry. 

Good things will come your way.

So please don’t let temporary people ruin your day.

Everything’s going to be okay.

Just close your eyes and Pray. 💓🙏🏻 

Life · love · Love advice · Mahal · Pag-ibig

Choose to love

How do you know you love someone? 

Is it when you care too much?

Is it when you’re having a bad day and their mere presence makes your day better? 

I asked several people about this matter.

And they didn’t manage to give me a decent answer.

Maybe love is unexplainable.

Maybe love is indescribable.

We all got these feelings we couldn’t express.

Maybe we’re afraid to take risks.

Or we already know the answer without even asking.

The joyous feeling that love gives us is beyond measure.

So as the pain and suffering we’re all trying to endure. 

How do you know when to stop?

Is it when you’ve had enough?

Will you just give up?

I guess love itself will never be enough.

When you love, you give.

You give your all until there’s nothing left to give. 

You give until it freaking hurts and give more until it no longer hurts.

The idea of love seems perfect.

But love is accepting the imperfect.

Accepting the things we can never change.

Letting go of the past that hurt us.

Facing whatever comes and whatever goes.

When things just don’t get better

That’s when we become tougher.

Choose to love because you can.

Choose to love because it is worth it.

Choose to Love.

Choose to Give.

And choose to Live. 💓

for you · God gave me you · Ikaw · open letter · Right person · Right time · Someday

Slowly but surely

Right now one thing’s certain, You make me really happy.

Thank you for treating me nicely.

When I felt like everyone’s giving up on me.

I’m not really hard to please.

A simple phone call or text message.. I’d be at ease.

Yes, we are friends right now.

What is to come .. is still unsure somehow. 

I actually don’t mind getting to know you slowly.

Please know that I’m not in a hurry.

Hey, you don’t have to be sorry. 

And don’t you feel guilty.

I’m always here for you.

And I feel that you’re always there for me too. 

Even the most typical stories you could tell.

I’d still choose to listen to them all day. 

Why don’t we have coffee again?

I loved those mornings filled with smiles and laughters. 

I thank God everyday for making our paths cross.

I always pray that you’ll stick around for good. 

Because I’m sure I’d always annoy you for as long as I could.

I’d love to make more memories with you.

I’d love to share more meals with you.

I’d love to listen about how your day went. 

No matter how bad it is, I’ll find a way to make it a better one. 

It’s very rare for me to write when I’m happy.

I usually write when I’m lonely.

But this time, I’m writing because I’m grateful.

Because of you.

Let’s not rush things.

Everything will fall into place when God says it’s time.

Thank you for coming into my life.

Thank you for making things right.

💓 

Blessing · Falling · for you · God gave me you · Ikaw · love · love story · Magmahal · open letter · Pag-ibig · Right person · Right time · Sana · Someday

“My Almost and Could have Been? I hope Not.” 

When we met I felt you were the one. 
The one who will give my life a different hue. 

The one who will make my mornings better than they were before. 

The one who will make me smile and laugh for sure.
Maybe I expected too much from you.

Everything I felt was too good to be true.

Or I guess I never should have expect anything from you.

For it only gave me hope that this dream of “us” will soon come true. 
I thought so it might lead into something romantic.

Everything that I felt was magic.

It came as a hurricane.

And destroyed me more than storms cause pain.
I never intended to bother you in any way.

I didn’t want to oblige you to talk to me everyday.

But I honestly prayed you’re here to stay.

And be with me till the end of day. 
Everyone asked if we have this special thing.

I could only smile and say nothing.

Because I honestly don’t know what we were.

Am I just a friend or is it something uncertain?
These feelings are something we couldn’t fake.

Maybe I was that risk you didn’t want to take.

And I was like a scar you’ve always hid.

Or A tear you never want to shed. 
Why didn’t you warn me before I fell?

I didn’t know that it will hurt like hell.

I want to get to know you well.

Your fears and awes to me you can always tell. 
I never want you to be my “almost”.

I constantly wished you’d be my “always.”

My “everytime” in this world full of “sometime”.

And not just my “could have been or would have been.”