Falling · for you · God gave me you · God is good · God’s blessing · Ikaw · love · love story · Magmahal · Mahal · open letter · Right person · Right time · Self esteem · Surprise

My Blessing and Surprise.

I still feel everything is surreal.

I fell in love with someone unexpectedly.

Or maybe I’ve fallen for him but I chose to ignore the feeling.

Why?

I’m not sure.

Maybe because I was too darn afraid to get hurt again.

For the nth time.

I was too afraid to be left hanging again.

I was too afraid to be judged by others.

Lastly, I was too focused with the idea of loving my close friend — who never saw me and never loved me in return.

I am but amazed how God made His way for Us — to fall in love with each other.

He showed me how nice you were.

How caring you were.

How loving you were to your friends and to your family.

I saw everything.

And still chose to ignore everything because I’ve always thought it will never work.

You’re just too nice for me.

You’re too gentle for me.

I’m too much of a brat — that nobody could ever handle my mood swings and attitude.

Surprisingly, you were able to handle everything — at my best and even at my worst.

You even saw me at my lowest point.

When I felt criticized, when I felt invisible, When I felt ugly because of my acne.

But you saw beyond what people usually see.

What people usually notice.

What people usually look at.

My imperfections.

My flaws.

You saw the beauty that nobody almost saw in me.

And I thank God for you, for helping me regain what I’ve lost — my self esteem.

My gratefulness always brings me into tears.

Because I’ve realized you are indeed God’s blessing.

You are an answered prayer.

You are a dream come true.

You are my happiness.

You make me a better person.

& You are one of my favorite Blessings.

I’ll never be ashamed to show how much I love you.

How much I want this relationship to work.

How much risks I’m willing to take.

Because I know this is worth it, we are worth it and you are worth it. ❤️

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Falling · Friendzone · Ikaw · Magmahal · Mahal · Masaktan · Pag-ibig · Sana · Someday

An Open Letter to my friend (whom I’ve fallen in love with…) 

Hi Love!

I always miss you.

I don’t know why I miss you even when you’re around.

How do I tell you how I feel?

should I even tell you about it?

You’ll be away for a while.

And I’m not sure how it’s like to spend the week without you.

How much more a month without you?

You have fun, my love.

I want to see you wear that heart-melting smile.

I want you to make unforgettable memories with your family.

I’d be happier just seeing you happy.

I’m excited to hear all your stories when you come back.

I’ll never get tired of listening to you.

Will you miss me too?

I don’t want to know if you do.

I already know the answer.

I don’t even have to ask. 

I love you still, my love.

Even though I’m not sure if you feel the same way. 

And even though I am just a friend to you.

I will always care for you.

I will miss you. 

I always will.

I can’t wait for you to come back. ❤️

Life · love · Love advice · Mahal · Pag-ibig

Choose to love

How do you know you love someone? 

Is it when you care too much?

Is it when you’re having a bad day and their mere presence makes your day better? 

I asked several people about this matter.

And they didn’t manage to give me a decent answer.

Maybe love is unexplainable.

Maybe love is indescribable.

We all got these feelings we couldn’t express.

Maybe we’re afraid to take risks.

Or we already know the answer without even asking.

The joyous feeling that love gives us is beyond measure.

So as the pain and suffering we’re all trying to endure. 

How do you know when to stop?

Is it when you’ve had enough?

Will you just give up?

I guess love itself will never be enough.

When you love, you give.

You give your all until there’s nothing left to give. 

You give until it freaking hurts and give more until it no longer hurts.

The idea of love seems perfect.

But love is accepting the imperfect.

Accepting the things we can never change.

Letting go of the past that hurt us.

Facing whatever comes and whatever goes.

When things just don’t get better

That’s when we become tougher.

Choose to love because you can.

Choose to love because it is worth it.

Choose to Love.

Choose to Give.

And choose to Live. 💓

Blessing · Crush · English · Falling · for you · Friendzone · God gave me you · Ikaw · love · love story · Magmahal · Mahal · open letter · Pag-ibig · Right person · Right time · Sana · Someday

2 years is never enough.

We met in 2014. At first I thought you were not that friendly but I was wrong, you were the sweetest I’ve met. ❤️

I was a complete stranger to you but you welcomed me into your life and I was kinda hoping you welcomed me into your heart too.

We were both single at that time. And I seriously prayed that you’ll notice me. The typical girl you bump into almost every week.

But you didn’t see me. It seems that you weren’t ready to love yet. I was willing to wait though.

Comes 2015, I told you how I felt. And I wasn’t surprised, I was just a friend to you. You said, you appreciate everything and I felt that.

Few months after, I still hoped you’d like me too. But then I found out you fell for someone else. You were courting someone else.

It broke my heart. I was in tears that night. I saw in your eyes how much you love her. And how much you’re willing to sacrifice for her.

I never saw you look at me that way. And it broke me inside. I said I should accept the fact that you will never like me. I said I should move on.

2016 is about to end and I’m still here waiting for you to notice my existence in your life. Waiting for you to realize I am the right person for you. 

It hurts me still seeing that even if she broke your heart you still love her. I guess we’re even. You’ve been hurting me unintentionally for 2 years but I’m still in love with you. 

2 years is never enough for you to fall in love with me. I guess I am that hard love. Thank you for the friendship. I still hope it will turn into something deeper. A relationship I never want to let go of. A relationship I would want to last for a lifetime. ❤️

I love you even if I don’t say it.

I love you even if we feel awkward at times.

I love you even if you can’t look at me in the eyes.

I love you even if you don’t feel the same.

I love you even if it breaks my heart everyday.

I love you even if you love her more. 

I love you my love.. ❤️

Coffee · love · Magmahal · Mahal · Pag-ibig · Tambay · Uncategorized

Thoughts while having coffee. 

I wish someone could join me right now.

I saw this guy right in front of me.

He seemed to be looking at me.

But maybe I just feel like he is.

Maybe he was just looking around.

Maybe I kinda hope he wanted to talk to me.

But he slowly walked away after finishing his drink.

Darn. I thought he was the one I’ve been praying for.

Maybe it’s just the caffeine.

I mean hey, there are more girls worth talking to than I am.

Maybe I look really unapproachable.

Is it me?

Or the people around me? 

I wish caffeine could help me realize more instead of expecting more. 

I wish caffeine could wake me up to reality. 

To the reality that life is not a fairytale.

That life will sometimes test your patience and your being.

That sometimes things won’t happen according to planned. 

And life will often surprise you.

Its suprises can either make you or break you.

Life broke me several times.

But it also made me who I am today.

It gave me a stronger heart. 

A better version of myself indeed.

Expecting less from people.

Learning to deal with pain.

And forgiving those who caused me pain. 

Oh the thoughts coffee brought me tonight. ❤️🙈

Blessing · God gave me you · love · Magmahal · Mahal · Uncategorized

A friendship so deep… 


To our dearest Babies.

I’ve never thought it would be this hard to say goodbye to all of you.

We’ve been through a lot of foodventures together. 

We’ve had good laughs.

Good days and bad.

Yet it only made our friendship deeper.

It made us love you guys more.

It might be easy for you to say that we’ll find new babies, new friends soon..

But to be honest, No one can replace you from our hearts.

Thank you for all the hugs and for the love you’ve shown us.

It breaks my heart still realizing that it will take a looong time before we could laugh and be silly together just like before.

That It would take a long time before I could hug you guys again.

I love you to bits our babies. ❤️

We’re missing you badly! 😫💔

Falling · love · Magmahal · Mahal · Tagalog · Uncategorized

Tamang Panahon


Kailan nga ba ang tamang panahon?

Sino ba ang tamang tao?

Kailan ba siya darating?

Naiinip na ako.

Sa tuwing nakikita ko ang ibang tao na nagmamahal at minamahal, nalulungkot ako.

Pakiramdam ko’y nag-iisa ako.

Walang nagmamahal. 

Madalas ay haharap ako sa salamin at magtatanong bakit walang nagkakagusto sakin?

Ganda na lamang ba talaga ng basehan sa taong mamahalin? 

At sa gabi’y dinadasal ko na lang na sana makilala ko na ang taong mamahalin ko at magmamahal sa akin ng totoo. 

Na sana matanggap niya ako pati mga kapintasan ko. 

Ayoko namang madaliin ang lahat.

Ayoko sa relasyong panandalian.

Gusto ko yung magtatagal. 

Yung totoo.

Walang echos, walang chena.

Tunay na pagmamahal. 

Balang araw, sa Tamang panahon.

Darating din siya. Ang tamang tao na nilaan ng Diyos para sa akin.

❤️❤️❤️

Crush · Falling · Friendzone · love · Magmahal · Mahal · Sana · Tagalog · Tambay · Uncategorized

Tambay sa “Friendzone”

Gusto ko na yata bigyan ang sarili ko ng award “Most Friendzoned” Awardee 

Nakakatawa lang no? Haha. 

Pero totoo yun.

For the past 3 years tumambay na yata ako sa friendzone.

Walang manliligaw, kung meron man hindi naman seryoso.

Walang nagkakagusto, kung meron man hindi naman pwede.

Walang nagtatangkang lumapit, ewan ko ba baka nasusungitan sakin?

Masakit ang mga katotohanang yun.

Kasi mapapaisip ka, “Ano kaya mali sakin? Bakit ako naffriendzone?”

Yung pakiramdam na “Not good enough” for anyone. 

Yung wala pa man sa getting to know stage, pinaparamdam na sa’yo na. 

“Friends naman tayo di ba?” 

“Mas okay kung friends di ba?”

“Mas tatagal tayo kung friends eh.”

Gasgas na mga linya.

Laging ganon ang punchline eh! Haha. 

Somehow, dahil sa pain and frustrations ko sa lovelife ko.

Nagkaroon ako ng panahon para mas kilalanin ang sarili ko.

Mas mahalin ang sarili ko.

Kung magmamahal man, magtitira ako para sa akin.

Hindi lahat ibinibigay.

At syempre magbago, para sakin at hindi para sa kahit sino. 

And later on, nasanay na ako sa lugar na to. 

Sa lugar ko.

Sa friendzone. 

Nasanay na ako na kaibigan lang.

Tagapayo, Karamay, Tagapakinig sa mga problema at hinaing.

Hindi na hihigit pa dun.

Siguro, malay natin? hindi pa lang ngayon.

Pero darating din yung taong mag-aahon sakin sa friendzone.

Yung taong ipararamdam sakin ang halaga ko.

Yung taong mamahalin ako kahit hindi ako perpekto.

Hindi man siya yung inaasam kong tao, pero baka higit pa siya sa inaasahan ko. ❤️

God gave me you · Ikaw · love · Magmahal · Mahal · Pag-ibig · Sana · Tagalog · Uncategorized

Para sa lalaking takot pang magmahal muli.

Alam ko malabong mabasa mo ito.

Sana hindi mo ito mabasa kung sakali.

Alam ko rin maraming mga tao ang nagtataka, kung bakit ikaw.

Ang dami naman daw.

Pero bakit ikaw?

Bakit nga ba?

Hindi ko rin alam.

Ang alam ko lang, gusto pa kitang mas makilala.

Dalawang buwan na ang nakaraan simula ng naging malapit tayo sa isa’t isa.

Dahil lamang sa outing natin.

Dalawang buwan na rin kitang nais kausapin.

Bakit ang bait mo sakin?

Bakit may iba akong naramdaman?

Gusto kong malaman.

Bakit bigla mo nalang ako iniiwasan?

Oo nag-uusap tayo, pero naiilang ka.

Ramdam ko, kinakausap mo lang ako. 

Dahil kailangan.

Nakokonsensya ako, dahil hinuhusgahan ka ng iba.

Bakit nga ba?

Dahil sa nararamdaman kong ito.

Ang dami kong gustong itanong.

Sa dalawang buwan na iyon, gustong gusto kitang kausapin.

Pero di ko alam papaano.

Gustong gusto ko ‘tong ayusin.

Pero paano?

Para bang ayaw mo.

Galit ka ba?

May tampo?

Sabihin mo naman sakin.

Nang hindi ako nababaliw sa kaiisip.

Anong mali ang nagawa ko?

Kasalanan ko rin siguro na nalaman mo ang nararamdaman ko.

Kaya ayaw mo lang din siguro ako saktan.

O baka ayaw mo pang magmahal muli?

Natatakot ka bang magmahal muli?

Sino bang hindi?

O siguro, Wala pa sa isip mo ang mga ganitong bagay.

Marahil, Hindi ako ganoon kahalaga para panghinayangan mo.

Sa ngayon, puro tanong ang bumabalot sa isip ko. 

Tanong na hanggang ngayon wala pa ring kasagutan. 

Puro siguro, Puro bakit, Puro baka.

Walang kasiguraduhan ang lahat.

Pero ganoon pa man, Nais kong malaman mo.

Kahit walang sigurado.

Gusto kong subukan.

Malay mo sa pagkakataong ito.

Tamang tao na ang mamahalin ko. 😊