Happy birthday my Love

January 15..

For others, it will just be a typical day.

A Typical monday..

But for me, It is a day I will always be grateful for.

The day my Love was born.

Love, As you turn 22 today I can only pray for your happiness, strength and success in life.

Thank you my love for always being there for me.

For your never ending patience and love.

For loving me beyond my flaws and imperfections.

I remember those days when I cry almost every night because I felt so down.

I felt so ugly.

But you were there.

And you have always reminded me that I shouldn’t feel that way.

Because I am beautiful.

And yes, you made me feel beautiful.

You made me feel taken care of.

You made me feel loved.

Whenever you look at me.

I see the look of genuine love.

And it melts my heart inside.

I have never felt this way before.

And no one ever made me feel this way.

I’ve prayed for a guy who’ll love me.

But God blessed me with more than what I’ve prayed for.

A guy who would open doors for me.

A guy who picks me up at home or at work.

A guy I could visit churches with.

A guy I could pray with.

A guy I could hear mass with.

A guy who loves my family and friends like the way I do.

A guy who only comes once in this lifetime.

Happy Birthday My Blessing, My B, My love.

If I could only do more to make your day very special and memorable, I’d do it for sure.

I want to make you happy today love.

I want to make you feel loved in all ways that I can.

I love you so much, My love. ❤️

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My Blessing and Surprise.

I still feel everything is surreal.

I fell in love with someone unexpectedly.

Or maybe I’ve fallen for him but I chose to ignore the feeling.

Why?

I’m not sure.

Maybe because I was too darn afraid to get hurt again.

For the nth time.

I was too afraid to be left hanging again.

I was too afraid to be judged by others.

Lastly, I was too focused with the idea of loving my close friend — who never saw me and never loved me in return.

I am but amazed how God made His way for Us — to fall in love with each other.

He showed me how nice you were.

How caring you were.

How loving you were to your friends and to your family.

I saw everything.

And still chose to ignore everything because I’ve always thought it will never work.

You’re just too nice for me.

You’re too gentle for me.

I’m too much of a brat — that nobody could ever handle my mood swings and attitude.

Surprisingly, you were able to handle everything — at my best and even at my worst.

You even saw me at my lowest point.

When I felt criticized, when I felt invisible, When I felt ugly because of my acne.

But you saw beyond what people usually see.

What people usually notice.

What people usually look at.

My imperfections.

My flaws.

You saw the beauty that nobody almost saw in me.

And I thank God for you, for helping me regain what I’ve lost — my self esteem.

My gratefulness always brings me into tears.

Because I’ve realized you are indeed God’s blessing.

You are an answered prayer.

You are a dream come true.

You are my happiness.

You make me a better person.

& You are one of my favorite Blessings.

I’ll never be ashamed to show how much I love you.

How much I want this relationship to work.

How much risks I’m willing to take.

Because I know this is worth it, we are worth it and you are worth it. ❤️

An Open Letter to my friend (whom I’ve fallen in love with…) 

Hi Love!

I always miss you.

I don’t know why I miss you even when you’re around.

How do I tell you how I feel?

should I even tell you about it?

You’ll be away for a while.

And I’m not sure how it’s like to spend the week without you.

How much more a month without you?

You have fun, my love.

I want to see you wear that heart-melting smile.

I want you to make unforgettable memories with your family.

I’d be happier just seeing you happy.

I’m excited to hear all your stories when you come back.

I’ll never get tired of listening to you.

Will you miss me too?

I don’t want to know if you do.

I already know the answer.

I don’t even have to ask. 

I love you still, my love.

Even though I’m not sure if you feel the same way. 

And even though I am just a friend to you.

I will always care for you.

I will miss you. 

I always will.

I can’t wait for you to come back. ❤️

Choose to love

How do you know you love someone? 

Is it when you care too much?

Is it when you’re having a bad day and their mere presence makes your day better? 

I asked several people about this matter.

And they didn’t manage to give me a decent answer.

Maybe love is unexplainable.

Maybe love is indescribable.

We all got these feelings we couldn’t express.

Maybe we’re afraid to take risks.

Or we already know the answer without even asking.

The joyous feeling that love gives us is beyond measure.

So as the pain and suffering we’re all trying to endure. 

How do you know when to stop?

Is it when you’ve had enough?

Will you just give up?

I guess love itself will never be enough.

When you love, you give.

You give your all until there’s nothing left to give. 

You give until it freaking hurts and give more until it no longer hurts.

The idea of love seems perfect.

But love is accepting the imperfect.

Accepting the things we can never change.

Letting go of the past that hurt us.

Facing whatever comes and whatever goes.

When things just don’t get better

That’s when we become tougher.

Choose to love because you can.

Choose to love because it is worth it.

Choose to Love.

Choose to Give.

And choose to Live. 💓

2 years is never enough.

We met in 2014. At first I thought you were not that friendly but I was wrong, you were the sweetest I’ve met. ❤️

I was a complete stranger to you but you welcomed me into your life and I was kinda hoping you welcomed me into your heart too.

We were both single at that time. And I seriously prayed that you’ll notice me. The typical girl you bump into almost every week.

But you didn’t see me. It seems that you weren’t ready to love yet. I was willing to wait though.

Comes 2015, I told you how I felt. And I wasn’t surprised, I was just a friend to you. You said, you appreciate everything and I felt that.

Few months after, I still hoped you’d like me too. But then I found out you fell for someone else. You were courting someone else.

It broke my heart. I was in tears that night. I saw in your eyes how much you love her. And how much you’re willing to sacrifice for her.

I never saw you look at me that way. And it broke me inside. I said I should accept the fact that you will never like me. I said I should move on.

2016 is about to end and I’m still here waiting for you to notice my existence in your life. Waiting for you to realize I am the right person for you. 

It hurts me still seeing that even if she broke your heart you still love her. I guess we’re even. You’ve been hurting me unintentionally for 2 years but I’m still in love with you. 

2 years is never enough for you to fall in love with me. I guess I am that hard love. Thank you for the friendship. I still hope it will turn into something deeper. A relationship I never want to let go of. A relationship I would want to last for a lifetime. ❤️

I love you even if I don’t say it.

I love you even if we feel awkward at times.

I love you even if you can’t look at me in the eyes.

I love you even if you don’t feel the same.

I love you even if it breaks my heart everyday.

I love you even if you love her more. 

I love you my love.. ❤️

Thoughts while having coffee. 

I wish someone could join me right now.

I saw this guy right in front of me.

He seemed to be looking at me.

But maybe I just feel like he is.

Maybe he was just looking around.

Maybe I kinda hope he wanted to talk to me.

But he slowly walked away after finishing his drink.

Darn. I thought he was the one I’ve been praying for.

Maybe it’s just the caffeine.

I mean hey, there are more girls worth talking to than I am.

Maybe I look really unapproachable.

Is it me?

Or the people around me? 

I wish caffeine could help me realize more instead of expecting more. 

I wish caffeine could wake me up to reality. 

To the reality that life is not a fairytale.

That life will sometimes test your patience and your being.

That sometimes things won’t happen according to planned. 

And life will often surprise you.

Its suprises can either make you or break you.

Life broke me several times.

But it also made me who I am today.

It gave me a stronger heart. 

A better version of myself indeed.

Expecting less from people.

Learning to deal with pain.

And forgiving those who caused me pain. 

Oh the thoughts coffee brought me tonight. ❤️🙈

A friendship so deep… 


To our dearest Babies.

I’ve never thought it would be this hard to say goodbye to all of you.

We’ve been through a lot of foodventures together. 

We’ve had good laughs.

Good days and bad.

Yet it only made our friendship deeper.

It made us love you guys more.

It might be easy for you to say that we’ll find new babies, new friends soon..

But to be honest, No one can replace you from our hearts.

Thank you for all the hugs and for the love you’ve shown us.

It breaks my heart still realizing that it will take a looong time before we could laugh and be silly together just like before.

That It would take a long time before I could hug you guys again.

I love you to bits our babies. ❤️

We’re missing you badly! 😫💔