Posted in Blessing, Falling, for you, God gave me you, Ikaw, love, love story, Magmahal, open letter, Pag-ibig, Right person, Right time, Sana, Someday

“My Almost and Could have Been? I hope Not.” 

When we met I felt you were the one. 
The one who will give my life a different hue. 

The one who will make my mornings better than they were before. 

The one who will make me smile and laugh for sure.
Maybe I expected too much from you.

Everything I felt was too good to be true.

Or I guess I never should have expect anything from you.

For it only gave me hope that this dream of “us” will soon come true. 
I thought so it might lead into something romantic.

Everything that I felt was magic.

It came as a hurricane.

And destroyed me more than storms cause pain.
I never intended to bother you in any way.

I didn’t want to oblige you to talk to me everyday.

But I honestly prayed you’re here to stay.

And be with me till the end of day. 
Everyone asked if we have this special thing.

I could only smile and say nothing.

Because I honestly don’t know what we were.

Am I just a friend or is it something uncertain?
These feelings are something we couldn’t fake.

Maybe I was that risk you didn’t want to take.

And I was like a scar you’ve always hid.

Or A tear you never want to shed. 
Why didn’t you warn me before I fell?

I didn’t know that it will hurt like hell.

I want to get to know you well.

Your fears and awes to me you can always tell. 
I never want you to be my “almost”.

I constantly wished you’d be my “always.”

My “everytime” in this world full of “sometime”.

And not just my “could have been or would have been.”

Posted in Blessing, Friendzone, love, Love advice, Magmahal, Pag-ibig, Right person, Right time, Sana, Someday

I just want to forget you.

I want to forget you.

I want to forget how you made me happy effortlessly.

You made me laugh endlessly.

And even in my dreams I love you deeply.

But how do I forget you?

When every minute of everyday I think of you.

I just want to get over this feeling.

I actually got tired of hoping.

Of waiting that you’ll feel my presence.

And see my existence.

In your big world full of people who matter more than I do.

Help me forget you.

Make me feel worthless if you have to.

I just want to get over you.

I don’t want to feel this pain anymore.

This pain I’ve been trying to endure.

I can’t wait until I get used to this pain.

I can’t wait until someone comes to ease the pain.

And that someone will surely make me happier than you did.

Will make me cry because of too much laughter.

Will teach me how to trust and believe in love again.

And Will make me feel that I’m worth all the time and all the love he’ll give. ❤️ 

Posted in Attention, Girl, love, Pag-ibig, Uncategorized, Unnoticed

To the girl who remains unnoticed

You might be having a bad day yet no one noticed. 

You might feel sick but no one sees.

You might be hurting but no one knows.

You might be in love yet not one cares.

Hey, you’re not ugly.

You’re a little weird but you’re cool.

You’re nice and friendly.

You seem to be very strong that’s why no one bothers to ask if you’re okay.

You seem to be very happy that’s why no one thinks you’re lonely. 

Deep within you are your feelings you didn’t want anyone to know.

You often put them into writing because you can’t tell everybody else how you feel. 

… And somehow afraid no one will understand you.

Even the person you truly love doesn’t notice everything that you’re doing for him.

Or if he does he doesn’t want to think deeper than he should.

To the girl who remains to be unnoticed, One day the one you love will see your worth.

And people will love you the way you love them.

They will all be grateful for everything that you’ve done for them. 

Do not seek their attention, it will come unexpectedly. ❤️

Posted in Blessing, Crush, English, Falling, for you, Friendzone, God gave me you, Ikaw, love, love story, Magmahal, Mahal, open letter, Pag-ibig, Right person, Right time, Sana, Someday

2 years is never enough.

We met in 2014. At first I thought you were not that friendly but I was wrong, you were the sweetest I’ve met. ❤️

I was a complete stranger to you but you welcomed me into your life and I was kinda hoping you welcomed me into your heart too.

We were both single at that time. And I seriously prayed that you’ll notice me. The typical girl you bump into almost every week.

But you didn’t see me. It seems that you weren’t ready to love yet. I was willing to wait though.

Comes 2015, I told you how I felt. And I wasn’t surprised, I was just a friend to you. You said, you appreciate everything and I felt that.

Few months after, I still hoped you’d like me too. But then I found out you fell for someone else. You were courting someone else.

It broke my heart. I was in tears that night. I saw in your eyes how much you love her. And how much you’re willing to sacrifice for her.

I never saw you look at me that way. And it broke me inside. I said I should accept the fact that you will never like me. I said I should move on.

2016 is about to end and I’m still here waiting for you to notice my existence in your life. Waiting for you to realize I am the right person for you. 

It hurts me still seeing that even if she broke your heart you still love her. I guess we’re even. You’ve been hurting me unintentionally for 2 years but I’m still in love with you. 

2 years is never enough for you to fall in love with me. I guess I am that hard love. Thank you for the friendship. I still hope it will turn into something deeper. A relationship I never want to let go of. A relationship I would want to last for a lifetime. ❤️

I love you even if I don’t say it.

I love you even if we feel awkward at times.

I love you even if you can’t look at me in the eyes.

I love you even if you don’t feel the same.

I love you even if it breaks my heart everyday.

I love you even if you love her more. 

I love you my love.. ❤️

Posted in Coffee, love, Magmahal, Mahal, Pag-ibig, Tambay, Uncategorized

Thoughts while having coffee. 

I wish someone could join me right now.

I saw this guy right in front of me.

He seemed to be looking at me.

But maybe I just feel like he is.

Maybe he was just looking around.

Maybe I kinda hope he wanted to talk to me.

But he slowly walked away after finishing his drink.

Darn. I thought he was the one I’ve been praying for.

Maybe it’s just the caffeine.

I mean hey, there are more girls worth talking to than I am.

Maybe I look really unapproachable.

Is it me?

Or the people around me? 

I wish caffeine could help me realize more instead of expecting more. 

I wish caffeine could wake me up to reality. 

To the reality that life is not a fairytale.

That life will sometimes test your patience and your being.

That sometimes things won’t happen according to planned. 

And life will often surprise you.

Its suprises can either make you or break you.

Life broke me several times.

But it also made me who I am today.

It gave me a stronger heart. 

A better version of myself indeed.

Expecting less from people.

Learning to deal with pain.

And forgiving those who caused me pain. 

Oh the thoughts coffee brought me tonight. ❤️🙈

Posted in Blessing, Falling, God gave me you, love, Pag-ibig, Right person, Right time, Someday

For the girl who’s losing her self esteem

It may be hard for you to believe but you are beautiful.

You may not have a perfect skin, a perfect hair or a perfect body but still you are beautiful.

Whenever you look at the mirror you doubt yourself a lot.

You feel ugly.

You feel imperfect.

You feel ignored by the guy you love because you ain’t perfect.

It’s not you.

It’s them.

They just don’t see the beauty in you.

You are beautiful from the inside to the outside.

You have a big heart for the ones who need love. 

You have a forgiving heart. 

You have a selfless heart.

And some may not see it, but the right person will. 

Never lose that self esteem.

Never feel unworthy.

You are lovable.

And the right guy will come someday.

He will look at you differently.

He will look at you like you’re the most beautiful girl in the world.

Just be patient.

He will come at the right time.

When both of you are ready.

When both of you are willing to take risks in love. 

❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Posted in English, love, Pag-ibig, Uncategorized

Love yourself 😊

I love spoiling myself.

I mean, If I won’t spoil myself.. Then who would?

Nobody’s gonna do that for me.

Most people think having a boyfriend who will buy you stuff that will make you happy is a NEED.. They are wrong. 

Your boyfriend does not exist just to buy you what you want.

Buy yourself what you want. (If you can.)

And if you couldn’t.

Keep saving money until you can afford to buy what you want. 

I don’t see anything wrong with loving one’s self. 

Before you learn to love someone else.

You should first learn to love yourself.

Know what you deserve and know who deserves your love.

It will just prepare you to love enough. 

Not much. But just enough.

Leave something for yourself.

Never give your everything.

Because if ever he decides to leave you. 

You’ll be left with nothing.

 Love yourself.

You deserve everything.

You deserve to be happy.

You deserve all the good stuff because you’re working so hard.

You’re fighting battles everyday. 

And no one else will do it for you.

Except yourself.

❤️❤️❤️❤️

Posted in God gave me you, Ikaw, love, Magmahal, Mahal, Pag-ibig, Sana, Tagalog, Uncategorized

Para sa lalaking takot pang magmahal muli.

Alam ko malabong mabasa mo ito.

Sana hindi mo ito mabasa kung sakali.

Alam ko rin maraming mga tao ang nagtataka, kung bakit ikaw.

Ang dami naman daw.

Pero bakit ikaw?

Bakit nga ba?

Hindi ko rin alam.

Ang alam ko lang, gusto pa kitang mas makilala.

Dalawang buwan na ang nakaraan simula ng naging malapit tayo sa isa’t isa.

Dahil lamang sa outing natin.

Dalawang buwan na rin kitang nais kausapin.

Bakit ang bait mo sakin?

Bakit may iba akong naramdaman?

Gusto kong malaman.

Bakit bigla mo nalang ako iniiwasan?

Oo nag-uusap tayo, pero naiilang ka.

Ramdam ko, kinakausap mo lang ako. 

Dahil kailangan.

Nakokonsensya ako, dahil hinuhusgahan ka ng iba.

Bakit nga ba?

Dahil sa nararamdaman kong ito.

Ang dami kong gustong itanong.

Sa dalawang buwan na iyon, gustong gusto kitang kausapin.

Pero di ko alam papaano.

Gustong gusto ko ‘tong ayusin.

Pero paano?

Para bang ayaw mo.

Galit ka ba?

May tampo?

Sabihin mo naman sakin.

Nang hindi ako nababaliw sa kaiisip.

Anong mali ang nagawa ko?

Kasalanan ko rin siguro na nalaman mo ang nararamdaman ko.

Kaya ayaw mo lang din siguro ako saktan.

O baka ayaw mo pang magmahal muli?

Natatakot ka bang magmahal muli?

Sino bang hindi?

O siguro, Wala pa sa isip mo ang mga ganitong bagay.

Marahil, Hindi ako ganoon kahalaga para panghinayangan mo.

Sa ngayon, puro tanong ang bumabalot sa isip ko. 

Tanong na hanggang ngayon wala pa ring kasagutan. 

Puro siguro, Puro bakit, Puro baka.

Walang kasiguraduhan ang lahat.

Pero ganoon pa man, Nais kong malaman mo.

Kahit walang sigurado.

Gusto kong subukan.

Malay mo sa pagkakataong ito.

Tamang tao na ang mamahalin ko. 😊