I still feel everything is surreal.
I fell in love with someone unexpectedly.
Or maybe I’ve fallen for him but I chose to ignore the feeling.
I’m not sure.
Maybe because I was too darn afraid to get hurt again.
For the nth time.
I was too afraid to be left hanging again.
I was too afraid to be judged by others.
Lastly, I was too focused with the idea of loving my close friend — who never saw me and never loved me in return.
I am but amazed how God made His way for Us — to fall in love with each other.
He showed me how nice you were.
How caring you were.
How loving you were to your friends and to your family.
I saw everything.
And still chose to ignore everything because I’ve always thought it will never work.
You’re just too nice for me.
You’re too gentle for me.
I’m too much of a brat — that nobody could ever handle my mood swings and attitude.
Surprisingly, you were able to handle everything — at my best and even at my worst.
You even saw me at my lowest point.
When I felt criticized, when I felt invisible, When I felt ugly because of my acne.
But you saw beyond what people usually see.
What people usually notice.
What people usually look at.
You saw the beauty that nobody almost saw in me.
And I thank God for you, for helping me regain what I’ve lost — my self esteem.
My gratefulness always brings me into tears.
Because I’ve realized you are indeed God’s blessing.
You are an answered prayer.
You are a dream come true.
You are my happiness.
You make me a better person.
& You are one of my favorite Blessings.
I’ll never be ashamed to show how much I love you.
How much I want this relationship to work.
How much risks I’m willing to take.
Because I know this is worth it, we are worth it and you are worth it. ❤️