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My Acne Journey

Not everyone was blessed with flawless skin.

Unfortunately, Me and my siblings inherited “acne-prone” skin from our parents.

I didn’t have much acne back in highschool & even in my college years.

But after I graduated college, I started having these “cystic acne”.

They’ve become worse when I started my review for the board exam. I think stress made them worse.

I got really bothered.

One morning while I was walking, a fruit vendor passed by me and said “Bili na kayo nakakatanggal ng pimples.”

I felt offended and I felt so much pain in my chest at that moment.

That’s when I’ve decided to visit “dermcare” to have a diamond peel session and buy some of their anti-acne products.

Luckily, I’ve got much clearer skin after just one session.

But a year after, I started having acne again.

But this time much worse than my past breakouts.

And almost everyone else at work criticized me for having acne.

They were like “What happened to your skin?” “You have flawless skin before.” “What have you been doing to your face?” “What happened to your face?”

I’ve tried searching for ways on how to lessen and cure my acne.

I’ve tried using hypoallergenic, non-comedogenic products, organic products and such but none of these helped.

So, I’ve decided to visit a dermatologist this time.

She prescribed “isotretinoin”. A medicine for severe acne.

But, this medicine will take effect only after several months of taking it.

My dermatologist warned me about getting more breakouts while taking isotretinoin for the first 3-4 months.

But after 3-4 months, my skin will have minimal breakouts or none at all.

I took the risk.

It was not easy at all.

Everyday, I had to face all of these people looking at my face like they get really disgusted with my acne.

And I cried almost every night looking at myself in the mirror.

I prayed every night to have the strength to face all these people criticizing me everyday.

They had no idea how much confidence I lost because of their criticisms.

It almost felt like I had no confidence left at all.

I never go out without make up back then.

I even want to wear a mask everytime I go to work and everytime I go home.

I almost didn’t want to go out with my friends.

But I believe God made a way.

He made me regain my confidence when I met this “guy”—

And this guy is now my boyfriend.

He looked at me differently.

Beyond my acne and imperfections.

Whenever he stares at me, I feel like I’m the most beautiful woman on earth.

Thank God I met him.

Slowly, I started having clearer skin as I continue taking my meds.

And now, All that’s left are these “marks”.

And everytime I look at myself in the mirror, these marks still remind me of how people criticized me because of being imperfect.

And these also remind me of how a guy loved me despite my flaws.

He helped me gain all the confidence that I’ve lost before.

To everyone suffering from acne, Don’t lose hope.

It is normal to get offended by the opinion of others, but don’t let their opinion bring you down.

Those acne will soon heal, those marks will soon disappear but the lessons learned will never fade away.

Just remember that God created all of us unique and beautiful.

It only takes the right eyes & the right heart to appreciate our beauty. ❤️

Falling · for you · love · love story · Magmahal · Masaktan · Pag-ibig · secret love · Self worth · Someday · Unnoticed

Bakit ikaw?

Minsan iniisip ko..

Kung bakit sa’yo nahulog ako..

Hindi ka nga perpekto..

Pero ikaw pa rin ang mahal ko..

Ni minsan hindi mo ako nakita..

At hindi ako sigurado kung ako ba’y iyong naaalala…

Ang hirap ng ganito..

Nagmamahal ng patago..

Walang kasiguraduhan.. 

Sugal ang nararamdaman.

Kung pwede lang turuan ang puso.

Matagal ko nang ginawa ito.

Kayhirap mong bitawan.

Kayhirap mong kalimutan.

Kahit wala naman tayong nakaraan.

Lagi kong dinadasal.

Na sana ikaw na ang bigay ng Maykapal.

At sana mapagod na rin ako.

Sa pagmamahal sa’yo.

At nang matigil na ang kagagahang ito.

Ayoko na ring umasa sa wala. 

Sakit lang ang laging napapala. 

Falling · Hanging · Ikaw · Leaving · love · Magmahal · Masaktan · open letter · Pag-ibig · Self worth

To the guy who left me hanging.

It’s been a week since we’ve stopped communicating.

I just want you to know that I’m not mad, I’m just hurting.

I saw you yesterday.

But I chose to look away.

It’s so hard to pretend that everything’s okay.

When all I wanted to say is “please stay.”

You let me go just like that.

Maybe I wasn’t important to you and it made me sad.

We used to talk everyday.

And you made me so happy in your simplest ways.

You’re not hard to love.

I just got tired of loving you.

Hindi ka naman mahirap mahalin.

Nakakapagod ka lang mahalin.

I won’t count everything that I’ve given.

I won’t get mad just because I can.

I just wish you’ve told me earlier.

That you have no plans of staying for good.

Or.. Is it just me expecting too much from you?

I don’t want to hear all those reasons.

Because if I really mattered, you could’ve fought for me. for us. 

There was never an “us” to begin with.

Then what were we?

Nothing? Something?

Are you just nice to me as you were to everyone else? 

Nothing was ever clear my dear.

And that’s what I would always fear.

To be an “almost.”

To be “temporary”.

To be a “for now”.

You have no idea how much you’ve hurt me.

I cried myself to sleep that night.

Though I told you, Yes I will be alright.

Well, now you know. I lied.
I’ll never forget you because of the pain you’ve caused.

These scars will remain.

But i’m sure I’ll learn to live with the pain.


To the guy who left me hanging..

Goodbye and I hope you’re happier without me. 

Blessing · God is good · Leaving · Life · love · Love advice · Pag-ibig · Pray · Rain · Right time · Self worth · Someday

Thoughts on a rainy night.

And so I thought this rain,

Will bring me chills instead of pain.

I know these tears won’t ever fall.

For the person who doesn’t deserve these at all.

Oh dear self, you know how fragile you always get.

Don’t ever do something you might regret.

Keep those worth keeping.

Leave those worth leaving.

To those people who don’t seem to appreciate you,

Let them go if they want to.

Once they’ve realized your value, 

They’ll do everything just to have you.

But then, you’ll be the best thing they’ll never have.

Forgive even if you’re hurt.

Smile even if it’s hard.

Dear, you deserve so much more

and that’s for sure.

Allow the rain to wash your pain.

Let your tears take away those fears.

You’ll be okay in time.

Just when the sun shines.

You’ll be more than fine.

God has better plans.

He’ll make you happy in the best way that He can.

Trust His perfect timing.

Because He never wants to see you hurting.

Stay happy, stay bubbly.

For tomorrow should never make you worry. 

Good things will come your way.

So please don’t let temporary people ruin your day.

Everything’s going to be okay.

Just close your eyes and Pray. 💓🙏🏻 

Attention · English · Life · love · Love advice · Option · Right person · Right time · Second choice · Self worth

When will you see your worth? 

You’re more than just a shoulder to lean on.

You’re more than just an option.

You’re a choice never a regret.

You’re real, better than dreams.

Never lose that self worth. 

You may not mean anything to him.

But you mean the world to others.

You’re beautiful.

You’re precious.

You just need the right guy to see your value.

The right guy who’ll love you so true.

The guy who’ll see all your efforts.

The guy who’ll always stick around just to annoy you.

Never settle for someone who doesn’t see your worth.

Never settle for someone who’s not aware of your pain.

Never settle for someone who doesn’t appreciate your efforts.

Never settle for someone who sees you as an option and a second choice.