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Thoughts while having coffee. 

I wish someone could join me right now.

I saw this guy right in front of me.

He seemed to be looking at me.

But maybe I just feel like he is.

Maybe he was just looking around.

Maybe I kinda hope he wanted to talk to me.

But he slowly walked away after finishing his drink.

Darn. I thought he was the one I’ve been praying for.

Maybe it’s just the caffeine.

I mean hey, there are more girls worth talking to than I am.

Maybe I look really unapproachable.

Is it me?

Or the people around me? 

I wish caffeine could help me realize more instead of expecting more. 

I wish caffeine could wake me up to reality. 

To the reality that life is not a fairytale.

That life will sometimes test your patience and your being.

That sometimes things won’t happen according to planned. 

And life will often surprise you.

Its suprises can either make you or break you.

Life broke me several times.

But it also made me who I am today.

It gave me a stronger heart. 

A better version of myself indeed.

Expecting less from people.

Learning to deal with pain.

And forgiving those who caused me pain. 

Oh the thoughts coffee brought me tonight. ❤️🙈

Posted in Crush, Falling, Friendzone, love, Magmahal, Mahal, Sana, Tagalog, Tambay, Uncategorized

Tambay sa “Friendzone”

Gusto ko na yata bigyan ang sarili ko ng award “Most Friendzoned” Awardee 

Nakakatawa lang no? Haha. 

Pero totoo yun.

For the past 3 years tumambay na yata ako sa friendzone.

Walang manliligaw, kung meron man hindi naman seryoso.

Walang nagkakagusto, kung meron man hindi naman pwede.

Walang nagtatangkang lumapit, ewan ko ba baka nasusungitan sakin?

Masakit ang mga katotohanang yun.

Kasi mapapaisip ka, “Ano kaya mali sakin? Bakit ako naffriendzone?”

Yung pakiramdam na “Not good enough” for anyone. 

Yung wala pa man sa getting to know stage, pinaparamdam na sa’yo na. 

“Friends naman tayo di ba?” 

“Mas okay kung friends di ba?”

“Mas tatagal tayo kung friends eh.”

Gasgas na mga linya.

Laging ganon ang punchline eh! Haha. 

Somehow, dahil sa pain and frustrations ko sa lovelife ko.

Nagkaroon ako ng panahon para mas kilalanin ang sarili ko.

Mas mahalin ang sarili ko.

Kung magmamahal man, magtitira ako para sa akin.

Hindi lahat ibinibigay.

At syempre magbago, para sakin at hindi para sa kahit sino. 

And later on, nasanay na ako sa lugar na to. 

Sa lugar ko.

Sa friendzone. 

Nasanay na ako na kaibigan lang.

Tagapayo, Karamay, Tagapakinig sa mga problema at hinaing.

Hindi na hihigit pa dun.

Siguro, malay natin? hindi pa lang ngayon.

Pero darating din yung taong mag-aahon sakin sa friendzone.

Yung taong ipararamdam sakin ang halaga ko.

Yung taong mamahalin ako kahit hindi ako perpekto.

Hindi man siya yung inaasam kong tao, pero baka higit pa siya sa inaasahan ko. ❤️