Blessing · Coffee · God gave me you · Life · open letter · Someday · Uncategorized

To my Coffee Buddy

Hi! I can’t sleep tonight.

Definitely not the caffeine.

Maybe it’s my mind saying.

“You should just stop overthinking.”

Now. 

I’m not sure how fast or slow did it go. 

But i’m sure it started with a simple “hello”. 

We’ve been enjoying coffee together now. 

And shared several mornings somehow. 

We’ve had good laughs.

And we tease each other alot. 

As days pass by, you’re becoming part of my  life.

You’ve brought me endless smiles.

You take all the stress away.

No therapy involved. (LOL)

Just your thoughtfulness,

Your concern and your time.

Can I just ask?

Will you stay for good?

Or will you eventually leave like most of them did?

I’m so afraid to get left behind.

I’m so done with all these pain.

Please don’t turn my sunshine into rain.

I want to share more stories with you.

More laughs with you.

More coffee with you.

Nothing will ever be certain today.

But I’m hoping you’re here to stay.

Wherever this may lead us.

Let’s take risks and trust.

My coffee buddy for always. ☕️

Attention · Girl · love · Pag-ibig · Uncategorized · Unnoticed

To the girl who remains unnoticed

You might be having a bad day yet no one noticed. 

You might feel sick but no one sees.

You might be hurting but no one knows.

You might be in love yet not one cares.

Hey, you’re not ugly.

You’re a little weird but you’re cool.

You’re nice and friendly.

You seem to be very strong that’s why no one bothers to ask if you’re okay.

You seem to be very happy that’s why no one thinks you’re lonely. 

Deep within you are your feelings you didn’t want anyone to know.

You often put them into writing because you can’t tell everybody else how you feel. 

… And somehow afraid no one will understand you.

Even the person you truly love doesn’t notice everything that you’re doing for him.

Or if he does he doesn’t want to think deeper than he should.

To the girl who remains to be unnoticed, One day the one you love will see your worth.

And people will love you the way you love them.

They will all be grateful for everything that you’ve done for them. 

Do not seek their attention, it will come unexpectedly. ❤️

Doctor love · Expert advice · Love advice · Uncategorized · Valentines

Dr. of Love ❤️ 

Friends often ask me for advice. 

I sometimes wonder why they believe I could help them or enlighten them. 

Because I’m not even in a relationship nor have I been in a successful and happy relationship in the past. 

It makes me happy though knowing that I could make people feel better with some of my inexpert advice. Lol.

I wish some guy out there who secretly likes me is asking his friends for advice too. Hmmm..

But hey that’s just a wish. Hahaha.

Nothing is certain. 

I’m just hoping that..

I’m worth thinking of..

I’m worth spending time with.. 

I’m worth loving… 

I’m worth fighting for … 

Coffee · love · Magmahal · Mahal · Pag-ibig · Tambay · Uncategorized

Thoughts while having coffee. 

I wish someone could join me right now.

I saw this guy right in front of me.

He seemed to be looking at me.

But maybe I just feel like he is.

Maybe he was just looking around.

Maybe I kinda hope he wanted to talk to me.

But he slowly walked away after finishing his drink.

Darn. I thought he was the one I’ve been praying for.

Maybe it’s just the caffeine.

I mean hey, there are more girls worth talking to than I am.

Maybe I look really unapproachable.

Is it me?

Or the people around me? 

I wish caffeine could help me realize more instead of expecting more. 

I wish caffeine could wake me up to reality. 

To the reality that life is not a fairytale.

That life will sometimes test your patience and your being.

That sometimes things won’t happen according to planned. 

And life will often surprise you.

Its suprises can either make you or break you.

Life broke me several times.

But it also made me who I am today.

It gave me a stronger heart. 

A better version of myself indeed.

Expecting less from people.

Learning to deal with pain.

And forgiving those who caused me pain. 

Oh the thoughts coffee brought me tonight. ❤️🙈

English · love · Pag-ibig · Uncategorized

Love yourself 😊

I love spoiling myself.

I mean, If I won’t spoil myself.. Then who would?

Nobody’s gonna do that for me.

Most people think having a boyfriend who will buy you stuff that will make you happy is a NEED.. They are wrong. 

Your boyfriend does not exist just to buy you what you want.

Buy yourself what you want. (If you can.)

And if you couldn’t.

Keep saving money until you can afford to buy what you want. 

I don’t see anything wrong with loving one’s self. 

Before you learn to love someone else.

You should first learn to love yourself.

Know what you deserve and know who deserves your love.

It will just prepare you to love enough. 

Not much. But just enough.

Leave something for yourself.

Never give your everything.

Because if ever he decides to leave you. 

You’ll be left with nothing.

 Love yourself.

You deserve everything.

You deserve to be happy.

You deserve all the good stuff because you’re working so hard.

You’re fighting battles everyday. 

And no one else will do it for you.

Except yourself.

❤️❤️❤️❤️

Blessing · God gave me you · love · Magmahal · Mahal · Uncategorized

A friendship so deep… 


To our dearest Babies.

I’ve never thought it would be this hard to say goodbye to all of you.

We’ve been through a lot of foodventures together. 

We’ve had good laughs.

Good days and bad.

Yet it only made our friendship deeper.

It made us love you guys more.

It might be easy for you to say that we’ll find new babies, new friends soon..

But to be honest, No one can replace you from our hearts.

Thank you for all the hugs and for the love you’ve shown us.

It breaks my heart still realizing that it will take a looong time before we could laugh and be silly together just like before.

That It would take a long time before I could hug you guys again.

I love you to bits our babies. ❤️

We’re missing you badly! 😫💔

Falling · love · Magmahal · Mahal · Tagalog · Uncategorized

Tamang Panahon


Kailan nga ba ang tamang panahon?

Sino ba ang tamang tao?

Kailan ba siya darating?

Naiinip na ako.

Sa tuwing nakikita ko ang ibang tao na nagmamahal at minamahal, nalulungkot ako.

Pakiramdam ko’y nag-iisa ako.

Walang nagmamahal. 

Madalas ay haharap ako sa salamin at magtatanong bakit walang nagkakagusto sakin?

Ganda na lamang ba talaga ng basehan sa taong mamahalin? 

At sa gabi’y dinadasal ko na lang na sana makilala ko na ang taong mamahalin ko at magmamahal sa akin ng totoo. 

Na sana matanggap niya ako pati mga kapintasan ko. 

Ayoko namang madaliin ang lahat.

Ayoko sa relasyong panandalian.

Gusto ko yung magtatagal. 

Yung totoo.

Walang echos, walang chena.

Tunay na pagmamahal. 

Balang araw, sa Tamang panahon.

Darating din siya. Ang tamang tao na nilaan ng Diyos para sa akin.

❤️❤️❤️

chinito · English · for you · love · open letter · Sana · Singkit · Uncategorized

Dear Chinito

Chinito’s don’t usually fascinate me.
It’s quite a suprise I got fascinated by you.
Maybe you’re more than typical chinito guys people meet everyday.
And maybe I saw something in you, I don’t usually see in other people.
You’re nice but you definitely have a crazy side.
You seem quiet but you know when to tell stories.
You’re a tease but you know when to stop teasing.
You’re cute but you’re not aware of that cuteness.
Yes, I know, You’re not perfect but you are different.
And being different makes you stand out from the other guys.
Your stare (gosh that stare!)
It’s melting my heart.
It touches my deeper being.
Yes your eyes are chinky but they express so much emotions you can’t lie about.
I just feel that I can trust you.
That I can tell you thoughts I never want other people know.
I feel safe when I’m with you.
But I guess, we’re just destined to meet.
We’re not destined to fall in love with each other.
You’re younger.
You’re wiser.
You’re rich and I’m not.
I’m not your type.
I believe all these prove that nothing will ever prosper.
But if it does, I’d gladly welcome you into my boring but crazy life. ❤️

Crush · Falling · Friendzone · love · Magmahal · Mahal · Sana · Tagalog · Tambay · Uncategorized

Tambay sa “Friendzone”

Gusto ko na yata bigyan ang sarili ko ng award “Most Friendzoned” Awardee 

Nakakatawa lang no? Haha. 

Pero totoo yun.

For the past 3 years tumambay na yata ako sa friendzone.

Walang manliligaw, kung meron man hindi naman seryoso.

Walang nagkakagusto, kung meron man hindi naman pwede.

Walang nagtatangkang lumapit, ewan ko ba baka nasusungitan sakin?

Masakit ang mga katotohanang yun.

Kasi mapapaisip ka, “Ano kaya mali sakin? Bakit ako naffriendzone?”

Yung pakiramdam na “Not good enough” for anyone. 

Yung wala pa man sa getting to know stage, pinaparamdam na sa’yo na. 

“Friends naman tayo di ba?” 

“Mas okay kung friends di ba?”

“Mas tatagal tayo kung friends eh.”

Gasgas na mga linya.

Laging ganon ang punchline eh! Haha. 

Somehow, dahil sa pain and frustrations ko sa lovelife ko.

Nagkaroon ako ng panahon para mas kilalanin ang sarili ko.

Mas mahalin ang sarili ko.

Kung magmamahal man, magtitira ako para sa akin.

Hindi lahat ibinibigay.

At syempre magbago, para sakin at hindi para sa kahit sino. 

And later on, nasanay na ako sa lugar na to. 

Sa lugar ko.

Sa friendzone. 

Nasanay na ako na kaibigan lang.

Tagapayo, Karamay, Tagapakinig sa mga problema at hinaing.

Hindi na hihigit pa dun.

Siguro, malay natin? hindi pa lang ngayon.

Pero darating din yung taong mag-aahon sakin sa friendzone.

Yung taong ipararamdam sakin ang halaga ko.

Yung taong mamahalin ako kahit hindi ako perpekto.

Hindi man siya yung inaasam kong tao, pero baka higit pa siya sa inaasahan ko. ❤️

God gave me you · Ikaw · love · Magmahal · Mahal · Pag-ibig · Sana · Tagalog · Uncategorized

Para sa lalaking takot pang magmahal muli.

Alam ko malabong mabasa mo ito.

Sana hindi mo ito mabasa kung sakali.

Alam ko rin maraming mga tao ang nagtataka, kung bakit ikaw.

Ang dami naman daw.

Pero bakit ikaw?

Bakit nga ba?

Hindi ko rin alam.

Ang alam ko lang, gusto pa kitang mas makilala.

Dalawang buwan na ang nakaraan simula ng naging malapit tayo sa isa’t isa.

Dahil lamang sa outing natin.

Dalawang buwan na rin kitang nais kausapin.

Bakit ang bait mo sakin?

Bakit may iba akong naramdaman?

Gusto kong malaman.

Bakit bigla mo nalang ako iniiwasan?

Oo nag-uusap tayo, pero naiilang ka.

Ramdam ko, kinakausap mo lang ako. 

Dahil kailangan.

Nakokonsensya ako, dahil hinuhusgahan ka ng iba.

Bakit nga ba?

Dahil sa nararamdaman kong ito.

Ang dami kong gustong itanong.

Sa dalawang buwan na iyon, gustong gusto kitang kausapin.

Pero di ko alam papaano.

Gustong gusto ko ‘tong ayusin.

Pero paano?

Para bang ayaw mo.

Galit ka ba?

May tampo?

Sabihin mo naman sakin.

Nang hindi ako nababaliw sa kaiisip.

Anong mali ang nagawa ko?

Kasalanan ko rin siguro na nalaman mo ang nararamdaman ko.

Kaya ayaw mo lang din siguro ako saktan.

O baka ayaw mo pang magmahal muli?

Natatakot ka bang magmahal muli?

Sino bang hindi?

O siguro, Wala pa sa isip mo ang mga ganitong bagay.

Marahil, Hindi ako ganoon kahalaga para panghinayangan mo.

Sa ngayon, puro tanong ang bumabalot sa isip ko. 

Tanong na hanggang ngayon wala pa ring kasagutan. 

Puro siguro, Puro bakit, Puro baka.

Walang kasiguraduhan ang lahat.

Pero ganoon pa man, Nais kong malaman mo.

Kahit walang sigurado.

Gusto kong subukan.

Malay mo sa pagkakataong ito.

Tamang tao na ang mamahalin ko. 😊