Thoughts on a rainy night.

And so I thought this rain,

Will bring me chills instead of pain.

I know these tears won’t ever fall.

For the person who doesn’t deserve these at all.

Oh dear self, you know how fragile you always get.

Don’t ever do something you might regret.

Keep those worth keeping.

Leave those worth leaving.

To those people who don’t seem to appreciate you,

Let them go if they want to.

Once they’ve realized your value, 

They’ll do everything just to have you.

But then, you’ll be the best thing they’ll never have.

Forgive even if you’re hurt.

Smile even if it’s hard.

Dear, you deserve so much more

and that’s for sure.

Allow the rain to wash your pain.

Let your tears take away those fears.

You’ll be okay in time.

Just when the sun shines.

You’ll be more than fine.

God has better plans.

He’ll make you happy in the best way that He can.

Trust His perfect timing.

Because He never wants to see you hurting.

Stay happy, stay bubbly.

For tomorrow should never make you worry. 

Good things will come your way.

So please don’t let temporary people ruin your day.

Everything’s going to be okay.

Just close your eyes and Pray. 💓🙏🏻 

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Choose to love

How do you know you love someone? 

Is it when you care too much?

Is it when you’re having a bad day and their mere presence makes your day better? 

I asked several people about this matter.

And they didn’t manage to give me a decent answer.

Maybe love is unexplainable.

Maybe love is indescribable.

We all got these feelings we couldn’t express.

Maybe we’re afraid to take risks.

Or we already know the answer without even asking.

The joyous feeling that love gives us is beyond measure.

So as the pain and suffering we’re all trying to endure. 

How do you know when to stop?

Is it when you’ve had enough?

Will you just give up?

I guess love itself will never be enough.

When you love, you give.

You give your all until there’s nothing left to give. 

You give until it freaking hurts and give more until it no longer hurts.

The idea of love seems perfect.

But love is accepting the imperfect.

Accepting the things we can never change.

Letting go of the past that hurt us.

Facing whatever comes and whatever goes.

When things just don’t get better

That’s when we become tougher.

Choose to love because you can.

Choose to love because it is worth it.

Choose to Love.

Choose to Give.

And choose to Live. 💓

Slowly but surely

Right now one thing’s certain, You make me really happy.

Thank you for treating me nicely.

When I felt like everyone’s giving up on me.

I’m not really hard to please.

A simple phone call or text message.. I’d be at ease.

Yes, we are friends right now.

What is to come .. is still unsure somehow. 

I actually don’t mind getting to know you slowly.

Please know that I’m not in a hurry.

Hey, you don’t have to be sorry. 

And don’t you feel guilty.

I’m always here for you.

And I feel that you’re always there for me too. 

Even the most typical stories you could tell.

I’d still choose to listen to them all day. 

Why don’t we have coffee again?

I loved those mornings filled with smiles and laughters. 

I thank God everyday for making our paths cross.

I always pray that you’ll stick around for good. 

Because I’m sure I’d always annoy you for as long as I could.

I’d love to make more memories with you.

I’d love to share more meals with you.

I’d love to listen about how your day went. 

No matter how bad it is, I’ll find a way to make it a better one. 

It’s very rare for me to write when I’m happy.

I usually write when I’m lonely.

But this time, I’m writing because I’m grateful.

Because of you.

Let’s not rush things.

Everything will fall into place when God says it’s time.

Thank you for coming into my life.

Thank you for making things right.

💓 

“My Almost and Could have Been? I hope Not.” 

When we met I felt you were the one. 
The one who will give my life a different hue. 

The one who will make my mornings better than they were before. 

The one who will make me smile and laugh for sure.
Maybe I expected too much from you.

Everything I felt was too good to be true.

Or I guess I never should have expect anything from you.

For it only gave me hope that this dream of “us” will soon come true. 
I thought so it might lead into something romantic.

Everything that I felt was magic.

It came as a hurricane.

And destroyed me more than storms cause pain.
I never intended to bother you in any way.

I didn’t want to oblige you to talk to me everyday.

But I honestly prayed you’re here to stay.

And be with me till the end of day. 
Everyone asked if we have this special thing.

I could only smile and say nothing.

Because I honestly don’t know what we were.

Am I just a friend or is it something uncertain?
These feelings are something we couldn’t fake.

Maybe I was that risk you didn’t want to take.

And I was like a scar you’ve always hid.

Or A tear you never want to shed. 
Why didn’t you warn me before I fell?

I didn’t know that it will hurt like hell.

I want to get to know you well.

Your fears and awes to me you can always tell. 
I never want you to be my “almost”.

I constantly wished you’d be my “always.”

My “everytime” in this world full of “sometime”.

And not just my “could have been or would have been.”

To my Coffee Buddy

Hi! I can’t sleep tonight.

Definitely not the caffeine.

Maybe it’s my mind saying.

“You should just stop overthinking.”

Now. 

I’m not sure how fast or slow did it go. 

But i’m sure it started with a simple “hello”. 

We’ve been enjoying coffee together now. 

And shared several mornings somehow. 

We’ve had good laughs.

And we tease each other alot. 

As days pass by, you’re becoming part of my  life.

You’ve brought me endless smiles.

You take all the stress away.

No therapy involved. (LOL)

Just your thoughtfulness,

Your concern and your time.

Can I just ask?

Will you stay for good?

Or will you eventually leave like most of them did?

I’m so afraid to get left behind.

I’m so done with all these pain.

Please don’t turn my sunshine into rain.

I want to share more stories with you.

More laughs with you.

More coffee with you.

Nothing will ever be certain today.

But I’m hoping you’re here to stay.

Wherever this may lead us.

Let’s take risks and trust.

My coffee buddy for always. ☕️

When will you see your worth? 

You’re more than just a shoulder to lean on.

You’re more than just an option.

You’re a choice never a regret.

You’re real, better than dreams.

Never lose that self worth. 

You may not mean anything to him.

But you mean the world to others.

You’re beautiful.

You’re precious.

You just need the right guy to see your value.

The right guy who’ll love you so true.

The guy who’ll see all your efforts.

The guy who’ll always stick around just to annoy you.

Never settle for someone who doesn’t see your worth.

Never settle for someone who’s not aware of your pain.

Never settle for someone who doesn’t appreciate your efforts.

Never settle for someone who sees you as an option and a second choice.

I just want to forget you.

I want to forget you.

I want to forget how you made me happy effortlessly.

You made me laugh endlessly.

And even in my dreams I love you deeply.

But how do I forget you?

When every minute of everyday I think of you.

I just want to get over this feeling.

I actually got tired of hoping.

Of waiting that you’ll feel my presence.

And see my existence.

In your big world full of people who matter more than I do.

Help me forget you.

Make me feel worthless if you have to.

I just want to get over you.

I don’t want to feel this pain anymore.

This pain I’ve been trying to endure.

I can’t wait until I get used to this pain.

I can’t wait until someone comes to ease the pain.

And that someone will surely make me happier than you did.

Will make me cry because of too much laughter.

Will teach me how to trust and believe in love again.

And Will make me feel that I’m worth all the time and all the love he’ll give. ❤️