Posted in Blessing, Crush, English, Falling, for you, Friendzone, God gave me you, Ikaw, love, love story, Magmahal, Mahal, open letter, Pag-ibig, Right person, Right time, Sana, Someday

2 years is never enough.

We met in 2014. At first I thought you were not that friendly but I was wrong, you were the sweetest I’ve met. ❤️

I was a complete stranger to you but you welcomed me into your life and I was kinda hoping you welcomed me into your heart too.

We were both single at that time. And I seriously prayed that you’ll notice me. The typical girl you bump into almost every week.

But you didn’t see me. It seems that you weren’t ready to love yet. I was willing to wait though.

Comes 2015, I told you how I felt. And I wasn’t surprised, I was just a friend to you. You said, you appreciate everything and I felt that.

Few months after, I still hoped you’d like me too. But then I found out you fell for someone else. You were courting someone else.

It broke my heart. I was in tears that night. I saw in your eyes how much you love her. And how much you’re willing to sacrifice for her.

I never saw you look at me that way. And it broke me inside. I said I should accept the fact that you will never like me. I said I should move on.

2016 is about to end and I’m still here waiting for you to notice my existence in your life. Waiting for you to realize I am the right person for you. 

It hurts me still seeing that even if she broke your heart you still love her. I guess we’re even. You’ve been hurting me unintentionally for 2 years but I’m still in love with you. 

2 years is never enough for you to fall in love with me. I guess I am that hard love. Thank you for the friendship. I still hope it will turn into something deeper. A relationship I never want to let go of. A relationship I would want to last for a lifetime. ❤️

I love you even if I don’t say it.

I love you even if we feel awkward at times.

I love you even if you can’t look at me in the eyes.

I love you even if you don’t feel the same.

I love you even if it breaks my heart everyday.

I love you even if you love her more. 

I love you my love.. ❤️

Posted in Christmas, christmas blues, Emmanuel, God with us, Holiday

Christmas Blues 


I believe as we grow older we get less excited about Christmas.

When we were kids we get pretty excited because of the presents and the Aguinaldo our Ninongs and Ninangs give us.

We get thrilled with Kris kringle and exchange gifts. 

But as we age we sometimes don’t feel that Christmas is approaching.

We get so busy with work and earning for a living. 

And We are already Ninongs and Ninangs which means we are obliged to give Aguinaldo and gifts to our inaanaks.

Funny how time flies.

I get a little upset thinking I have work on December 24th and 31st. 

Well, I guess that’s life. Being a hospital worker means sacrificing a holiday, a good night sleep and even a decent rest for patients who need ample health services.

I hope people also see these sacrifices and learn to be grateful for all hospital workers.. Nurses, Doctors, Medtechs, Radtechs and such.. 

However, Christmas is not just about the gifts, the holiday feast and the bountiful meals. 

It is commemorating the birth of our Saviour, Jesus Christ.

And that’s the best thing about Christmas.

Christmas is reminding us that no matter how hard life gets…

Christ is here to strengthen us and guide us. 

We are never alone. 

Emmanuel. (God with us) 

Merry Christmas everyone! 

Posted in Coffee, love, Magmahal, Mahal, Pag-ibig, Tambay, Uncategorized

Thoughts while having coffee. 

I wish someone could join me right now.

I saw this guy right in front of me.

He seemed to be looking at me.

But maybe I just feel like he is.

Maybe he was just looking around.

Maybe I kinda hope he wanted to talk to me.

But he slowly walked away after finishing his drink.

Darn. I thought he was the one I’ve been praying for.

Maybe it’s just the caffeine.

I mean hey, there are more girls worth talking to than I am.

Maybe I look really unapproachable.

Is it me?

Or the people around me? 

I wish caffeine could help me realize more instead of expecting more. 

I wish caffeine could wake me up to reality. 

To the reality that life is not a fairytale.

That life will sometimes test your patience and your being.

That sometimes things won’t happen according to planned. 

And life will often surprise you.

Its suprises can either make you or break you.

Life broke me several times.

But it also made me who I am today.

It gave me a stronger heart. 

A better version of myself indeed.

Expecting less from people.

Learning to deal with pain.

And forgiving those who caused me pain. 

Oh the thoughts coffee brought me tonight. ❤️🙈

Posted in Blessing, Falling, God gave me you, love, Pag-ibig, Right person, Right time, Someday

For the girl who’s losing her self esteem

It may be hard for you to believe but you are beautiful.

You may not have a perfect skin, a perfect hair or a perfect body but still you are beautiful.

Whenever you look at the mirror you doubt yourself a lot.

You feel ugly.

You feel imperfect.

You feel ignored by the guy you love because you ain’t perfect.

It’s not you.

It’s them.

They just don’t see the beauty in you.

You are beautiful from the inside to the outside.

You have a big heart for the ones who need love. 

You have a forgiving heart. 

You have a selfless heart.

And some may not see it, but the right person will. 

Never lose that self esteem.

Never feel unworthy.

You are lovable.

And the right guy will come someday.

He will look at you differently.

He will look at you like you’re the most beautiful girl in the world.

Just be patient.

He will come at the right time.

When both of you are ready.

When both of you are willing to take risks in love. 

❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Posted in English, love, Pag-ibig, Uncategorized

Love yourself 😊

I love spoiling myself.

I mean, If I won’t spoil myself.. Then who would?

Nobody’s gonna do that for me.

Most people think having a boyfriend who will buy you stuff that will make you happy is a NEED.. They are wrong. 

Your boyfriend does not exist just to buy you what you want.

Buy yourself what you want. (If you can.)

And if you couldn’t.

Keep saving money until you can afford to buy what you want. 

I don’t see anything wrong with loving one’s self. 

Before you learn to love someone else.

You should first learn to love yourself.

Know what you deserve and know who deserves your love.

It will just prepare you to love enough. 

Not much. But just enough.

Leave something for yourself.

Never give your everything.

Because if ever he decides to leave you. 

You’ll be left with nothing.

 Love yourself.

You deserve everything.

You deserve to be happy.

You deserve all the good stuff because you’re working so hard.

You’re fighting battles everyday. 

And no one else will do it for you.

Except yourself.

❤️❤️❤️❤️

Posted in Blessing, God gave me you, love, Magmahal, Mahal, Uncategorized

A friendship so deep… 


To our dearest Babies.

I’ve never thought it would be this hard to say goodbye to all of you.

We’ve been through a lot of foodventures together. 

We’ve had good laughs.

Good days and bad.

Yet it only made our friendship deeper.

It made us love you guys more.

It might be easy for you to say that we’ll find new babies, new friends soon..

But to be honest, No one can replace you from our hearts.

Thank you for all the hugs and for the love you’ve shown us.

It breaks my heart still realizing that it will take a looong time before we could laugh and be silly together just like before.

That It would take a long time before I could hug you guys again.

I love you to bits our babies. ❤️

We’re missing you badly! 😫💔

Posted in Falling, love, Magmahal, Mahal, Tagalog, Uncategorized

Tamang Panahon


Kailan nga ba ang tamang panahon?

Sino ba ang tamang tao?

Kailan ba siya darating?

Naiinip na ako.

Sa tuwing nakikita ko ang ibang tao na nagmamahal at minamahal, nalulungkot ako.

Pakiramdam ko’y nag-iisa ako.

Walang nagmamahal. 

Madalas ay haharap ako sa salamin at magtatanong bakit walang nagkakagusto sakin?

Ganda na lamang ba talaga ng basehan sa taong mamahalin? 

At sa gabi’y dinadasal ko na lang na sana makilala ko na ang taong mamahalin ko at magmamahal sa akin ng totoo. 

Na sana matanggap niya ako pati mga kapintasan ko. 

Ayoko namang madaliin ang lahat.

Ayoko sa relasyong panandalian.

Gusto ko yung magtatagal. 

Yung totoo.

Walang echos, walang chena.

Tunay na pagmamahal. 

Balang araw, sa Tamang panahon.

Darating din siya. Ang tamang tao na nilaan ng Diyos para sa akin.

❤️❤️❤️

Posted in buslovestory, chivalry is not dead, Crush, Ikaw, love, love story, Sana, Singkit, Tagalog

“Bus Love story”

Kung merong Jeepney love story si Yeng Constantino, meron naman akong Bus love story.. 

Please don’t judge! Ngayon lang to promise! 

Monday is a busy day for most of us, lalo sa mga lumuluwas from their province to Manila. In my case, galing ako Pampanga pupunta ng Manila to get something I worked so hard for. Ang aking PRC license.

Syempre pinaghirapan ko yun, so kailangan kunin. Hahaha. Nagrereview palang ako para sa board exam naranasan ko na ang Monday madness sa pagsakay ng bus. Walang Monday na hindi standing papuntang Manila. Tama? Wala pa yatang Lunes na lumuwas ako at nakahanap ng mauupuan. In short, inexpect ko nang tatayo ako from San Fernando to Avenida. 

Hay! Sumakto pang umulan pagbaba ko ng jeep. At suot ko pang sapatos ay canvass, deretso sa medyas ang basa. Pag sineswerte ka nga naman! Nakita kong dumaan ang Bataan Transit na Avenida at nagtakbuhan ang mga tao papunta dun dahil sa biglang pagbuhos ng ulan. Ako naman, di ko na sinubukang tumakbo dahil baka madapa or madulas pa ako at lalong maiwanan ako ng bus. 

So, pagsakay ko ng bus. Ayos! Standing na! At di ko alam saan ako ppwesto. So ayun, nung dumaan sa Robinsons yung bus may mga ilan na bumaba. So medyo umasa akong may uupuan ako. Kaso yung mga lalaking kasabay ko, inunahan ako sa lahat ng upuan. Ang saya! Haha! Nang may isang mabakanteng upuan sa gawing likuran, May isang lalaki na tinuro yun at sinabing dun nalang ako maupo. Dahil ako lang yung babaeng nakatayo. Kaya lang, inunahan ako ng isa pang lalaki. Kaya nagreact siya “Yun lang!” Sabay ngiti. 

Naka-cap siya na nike, Naka-gray siya na shirt, Naka-vans na shoes at naka-Iphone. Noong una hindi ko masyado napansin ang kanyang mukha dahil wala akong salamin. Hahaha. Uy! Meron pa palang isang upuan, yung upuan na nilalagay sa aisle ng bus at sinabi niyang dun nalang daw ako maupo. 

So ayun, pag-upo ko sinuot ko kaagad yung salamin ko. Uy ha! Wag judgmental! Hindi ko sinuot yun para lang makita siya ng mas malinaw, kundi dahil masakit yung ulo ko pag hindi ko yun suot. Though syempre nakatulong yun para mas makita ko siya. Hahaha! Nung lumapit na yung kunduktor para mamigay ng ticket una siyang binigyan kasi nga nasa harapan ko siya. Tinanong siya “Estudyante po?” Nilabas niya yung ID niya at sobrang linaw ng mata ko, nakita ko “UST”. At nung ako na yung tingnan ng konduktor sabi ko “Avenida po”. Tinanong din ako, “Estudyante po?” at ang sagot ko. “Hindi po”. Naramdaman kong nagulat siya ng bahagya nung marinig niya yun.

Malamang iniisip niya na matanda nako. Hmm! Kainis! hahahaha! Habang nagbbyahe, hindi ko alam if nagffeeling lang ako or napapatingin siya sa akin. Or baka nagffeeling nga lang ako! Hahaha! Sorry na! Pero siguro naman napapalingon siya kahit konti! Grabe naman kayo! Hahaha! So ayun, pareho lang kami naka-headset buong byahe nakikinig ng music.

Gusto ko sanang pa-Thank you sakanya dahil imbis na siya yung umupo dun, ako pinaupo niya. Kaso nahihiya ako. So ayun, may biglang bumaba, so nakaupo na ako ng maayos. Ineexpect ko na uupo kaagad siya dun sa inupuan ko, kaso tinanong niya muna ako habang tinuturo yung upuan. Tumango nalang ako, saka siya umupo. at patuloy na nakinig ng music. Hahahaha! 

Gusto ko na siya kausapin, kaso wala pa rin ako lakas ng loob. Hahaha! Char. So hinayaan ko na lang. Nang may biglang bumaba ulit, dalawa! So umupo siya. Tumayo ako sa kinauupuan ko para umupo sa tabi niya para mas madali makababa at dahil gusto ko nga pa-Thank you. Kaso nahihiya pa din ako. Hanggang marealize ko na, malapit na bumaba. Edi nagkapal na ako ng mukha. Inhale, Exhale! Go! 

Ako :”Excuse me, pwedeng magtanong?” 

Siya: Ano po yun?

Ako: Taga UST ka ba? Hmm kasi gusto ko makarating kaagad sa PRC alam mo ba kung 

saan ako bababa at anong sasakyan ko papunta dun? 

Siya: Opo, bababa po dun sa may Goldilocks tapos magttricycle papuntang PRC. Sakto dun din naman po ang punta ko, sa may FEU. 

Okay, so ayun! Hahaha! Kapal ng mukha ko. My gosh! Sobrang nice niya, kaso nga lang nagpo-Po siya! So, porket nagwwork nako super tanda ko na? ganern?! Pero keri lang! Hahaha! So bumaba na nga kami! Pero promise! Di ko alam kung saan bababa! Gusto ko lang makarating kaagad! Ayun nga, pagbaba.

Ako: Hmm wala bang jeep papunta dun?

Siya: Wala po eh. Tricycle lang. Yun lang ang mahirap dito. Malayo naman kung lalakarin.

Ako: I’m so lost! Huhu

Siya: First time niyo po ba pupunta dun?

Ako: Hindi naman kaso, dati bumababa pa ako sa Avenida. Feeling ko napapalayo ako. 

Hanggang tinanong niya yung isang tricycle driver.

Siya: PRC po?

Tumango naman yung driver at nagback ride siya. 

Ako: Dito ka nalang sa loob.

Siya: Hindi po dito na lang ako. Okay lang ako dito.

*Guys syempre kawawa naman! Cutie niya tas mauusukan siya dun sa likod! Hahahaha! 

So ayun, siguro may 10 minutes din byahe namin papuntang PRC pero mas napabilis kesa kung bumaba ako sa Avenida. So pagbaba, agad niyang inabot yung 100 pesos niya dun sa driver. Kaso habang kausap niya yung kaibigan niya. Sabi ng driver “Wala po kayong barya?” Sumagot ako, “Magkano po ba?” 60 daw, so binayaran ko na habang busy siya. Binalik ko sakanya yung 100. 

Siya: Ha, Magkano po? Wala kasi akong barya, papalit ko lang muna dito tapos bayaran ko kayo.

Ako: Nako hindi na. Okay na.

Siya: Hindi po babayaran ko. O kaya bilhan ko nalang kayo ng inumin dito. Please.

Ako: *Nakikita kong nagblush siya sa hiya* Hindi na okay lang talaga. Okay na yun. At least di ako naligaw.

Siya: Hmm. Sige po. Thank you!

Ako: Thank you rin!

 


Ayun guys! THE END! Nganga ang ending. Ayos ba? HAHAHAHAHA! 🙂

THANKS FOR READING! 🙂 

 

 

Posted in chinito, English, for you, love, open letter, Sana, Singkit, Uncategorized

Dear Chinito

Chinito’s don’t usually fascinate me.
It’s quite a suprise I got fascinated by you.
Maybe you’re more than typical chinito guys people meet everyday.
And maybe I saw something in you, I don’t usually see in other people.
You’re nice but you definitely have a crazy side.
You seem quiet but you know when to tell stories.
You’re a tease but you know when to stop teasing.
You’re cute but you’re not aware of that cuteness.
Yes, I know, You’re not perfect but you are different.
And being different makes you stand out from the other guys.
Your stare (gosh that stare!)
It’s melting my heart.
It touches my deeper being.
Yes your eyes are chinky but they express so much emotions you can’t lie about.
I just feel that I can trust you.
That I can tell you thoughts I never want other people know.
I feel safe when I’m with you.
But I guess, we’re just destined to meet.
We’re not destined to fall in love with each other.
You’re younger.
You’re wiser.
You’re rich and I’m not.
I’m not your type.
I believe all these prove that nothing will ever prosper.
But if it does, I’d gladly welcome you into my boring but crazy life. ❤️

Posted in Crush, Falling, Friendzone, love, Magmahal, Mahal, Sana, Tagalog, Tambay, Uncategorized

Tambay sa “Friendzone”

Gusto ko na yata bigyan ang sarili ko ng award “Most Friendzoned” Awardee 

Nakakatawa lang no? Haha. 

Pero totoo yun.

For the past 3 years tumambay na yata ako sa friendzone.

Walang manliligaw, kung meron man hindi naman seryoso.

Walang nagkakagusto, kung meron man hindi naman pwede.

Walang nagtatangkang lumapit, ewan ko ba baka nasusungitan sakin?

Masakit ang mga katotohanang yun.

Kasi mapapaisip ka, “Ano kaya mali sakin? Bakit ako naffriendzone?”

Yung pakiramdam na “Not good enough” for anyone. 

Yung wala pa man sa getting to know stage, pinaparamdam na sa’yo na. 

“Friends naman tayo di ba?” 

“Mas okay kung friends di ba?”

“Mas tatagal tayo kung friends eh.”

Gasgas na mga linya.

Laging ganon ang punchline eh! Haha. 

Somehow, dahil sa pain and frustrations ko sa lovelife ko.

Nagkaroon ako ng panahon para mas kilalanin ang sarili ko.

Mas mahalin ang sarili ko.

Kung magmamahal man, magtitira ako para sa akin.

Hindi lahat ibinibigay.

At syempre magbago, para sakin at hindi para sa kahit sino. 

And later on, nasanay na ako sa lugar na to. 

Sa lugar ko.

Sa friendzone. 

Nasanay na ako na kaibigan lang.

Tagapayo, Karamay, Tagapakinig sa mga problema at hinaing.

Hindi na hihigit pa dun.

Siguro, malay natin? hindi pa lang ngayon.

Pero darating din yung taong mag-aahon sakin sa friendzone.

Yung taong ipararamdam sakin ang halaga ko.

Yung taong mamahalin ako kahit hindi ako perpekto.

Hindi man siya yung inaasam kong tao, pero baka higit pa siya sa inaasahan ko. ❤️